Dear Erika,
Twenty two years ago today I had been up most of the night walking the corridors of the hospital, occasionally stopping to await the passing of a contraction. You were slow to let go of your underwater world and spent many hours (25 or more) contemplating birth.
We finally made the decision for you...sounds familiar doesn't it. There have been many times since that day when I pushed you, perhaps too soon, into the next phase of your life.
In 22 minutes it will be the anniversary of that occasion when you made your entry by way of a caesarean section. I was awake and could feel the tugging as the doctor pulled you into this new world. Your Dad was there watching the whole thing bravely.
I remember the first time I held your little body. You were all fresh and full of colour and life. At that moment my life changed completely. Taking risks would be different now. Suddenly the things I had once thought I wanted to do, like hang gliding or rappelling, paled in comparison. Everything I did from then onward would be for my children and not for me.
Don't ever doubt that I or your father ever stopped loving you for one second since that day. Indeed we loved you from the moment we knew of your existence.
Dearest daughter, I will always love you, as will your father. Your birth was one of the happiest days of our lives.
Kisses and hugs,
Mum
Twenty two years ago today I had been up most of the night walking the corridors of the hospital, occasionally stopping to await the passing of a contraction. You were slow to let go of your underwater world and spent many hours (25 or more) contemplating birth.
We finally made the decision for you...sounds familiar doesn't it. There have been many times since that day when I pushed you, perhaps too soon, into the next phase of your life.
In 22 minutes it will be the anniversary of that occasion when you made your entry by way of a caesarean section. I was awake and could feel the tugging as the doctor pulled you into this new world. Your Dad was there watching the whole thing bravely.
I remember the first time I held your little body. You were all fresh and full of colour and life. At that moment my life changed completely. Taking risks would be different now. Suddenly the things I had once thought I wanted to do, like hang gliding or rappelling, paled in comparison. Everything I did from then onward would be for my children and not for me.
Don't ever doubt that I or your father ever stopped loving you for one second since that day. Indeed we loved you from the moment we knew of your existence.
Dearest daughter, I will always love you, as will your father. Your birth was one of the happiest days of our lives.
Kisses and hugs,
Mum
